Category Archives: Fibro Fogging

To my FibroFriends

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I am doing much better and I think it’s mostly an anti-anxiety/depression medication (medically know as SSRIs: selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors.) There are different drugs within this family: lexapro, celexa, wellbutrin, zoloft, prozac and they all do the same thing – more happy juice in the brain because it makes your brain keep extra serotonin floating around. Serotonin is a powerful neurotransmitter that has many many jobs in the brain only one of which is mood enhancing. SSRIs provide extra help in the brain to calm us, make us feel happy, reduce panic/anxiety, and help relieve a little of the pain. The SSRI I LOVE is Lexapro. I used lexapro before for panic attack while in college for 5 years and it really helped me feel like a better version of myself. But last Aug when my fibro start and was HORRIBLE they took me off of lexapro to do lyrica than cymbalta… and so on.  When my panic attacks came back in May I asked the doctors to put me back on it. They said I could combined it was the cymbalta. Well with the lexapro I finally started to feel like more like my old self not fibrocrazy lady. So as an experiment (and not telling my doctors) I stopped taking my cymbalta and figured out that in my opinion it was making me crrrraaaazzzy and more bad mental days made me more stress, depressed, and was causing more PAIN. So for a 2-3 months I just had lexapro and felt more like myself than I had in the past year. After going off the cymbalta I realized it really was helping with pain but honestly, it was making me hear and see things, have moodswings, black out, forget everything… it was antagonizing my fibrofog to the point where I couldn’t function. Thats when I starting researching both Cymbalta and Savella (the new fibro drug):

Cymbalta works with serotonin like lexapro but also works with norepinephrine (basically a natural painkiller with the downside that too much cause effects similar to an adrenaline rush and that makes fibrobodies have more pain.) It is made for people with rheumatological pain like arthritis. But balancing norepinephrine is hard to do especially for someone with fibromyalgia that I 100% believe is caused by false signals in the brain. I believe the cymbalta was causing way more problems while muting/helping with pain. If fibro was just about pain I think I could manage it… its the rest of craziness that overcomes me! =)

Savella is similar to cymbalta but it was created for fibromyalgia pain and they better balanced the selective serotonin and norepinephrine re-uptake inhibitors (SSNRIs – the chemicals that force your brain to leave extra serotonin and norepinephrine floating around) just for our fibrobrains so that it helps with pain but doesn’t make you fibrocrazy.

Now anytime you take medications that work on serotonin (SSRIs) there are side effects. Most of them go away within 3 weeks and are gone for good. Lexapro causes me to not be able to sleep until my body gets really used to it. Some people feel nauseous, some get some headaches but those usually go away within the 1st week. Before I found that lexapro worked best for me I tried 2 other SSRIs which one i don’t remember the name of which gave me lots of side effects and then celexa worked great but they let me try Lexapro when it first came out and it worked better, so it is normal for one med to cause many side effects and another not – they are all tweaked differently because different people respond differentially. The research I’ve done says lexapro seems to cause the least amounts of side effect and for a shorter amount time because the molecules have been split by light to remove unnecessary molecules that seem to cause side effects but i’m parcel because I love lexapro. Hahaha. My friends Sara who’s a nurse loves celexa (which I liked) because it doesn’t make her nauseous.  There are some who still swear wellbutrin is the best. Another is Prozac is one of the oldest so it has more side effects (the newer drugs have been made to reduce side effects and improve function.)

Anyway, my point is even though SSRIs are labeled as “antidepressants” they work for countless other illnesses because serotonin works on much more than just happiness in our bodies. I think it could be a great place for you to start if you are sensitive to medication but need help managing the fibro.

Now SSRIs can be difficult to get on so I highly recommend starting very slow to reduce side effect (medical word for doing this is titrating.) Slower than even the doctor my suggest.  When I started back on Lexapro I did this: for the first week i take 1/4 of the dosage (mornings if it causes sleeplessness/night if it cause nausea.) Week 2: 1/4 in the morning and 1/4 at night (totally 1/2 dosage;) Week 3: 1/2 dosage at one time – your preference for morning or night; Week 4 and on, If I think I need more time for the side effect to get better I stay another week and 1/2 dosage. If you want to slowly step again, I’d take 1/2 dosage when you prefer and 1/4 dosage 12 hours later. If you think your ready to go (a lot of people can just jump from 1/2 to whole in a week or two,) take the full dosage at your preferred time and if you think you need to stretch out each step to 2 week, do it. Its just like drink alcohol – if you drink the whole bottle you’ll be puking and dying! But if you build up your tolerance slowly, you can drink like a champ :)

Right now I am taking lexapro 40 mg. I started the Savella last month. I think it was working by muting pain but I ran out of the starter pack and my pharmacy had to order the refill since it’s so new, so I’ve been off it for about a week and hope to pick up the refill today. I’m not sure if it’s working wonders yet since I was on a very slow introduction (just like my lexapro example above), but it isn’t making me worse! I had one week at 50mg and now with this refill I am continuing at 50mg (1/2 the recommended minimal dosage of 100mg) because I am taking it with lexapro (they work together so I may never need a high dosage). I am hoping that combining these two drugs will continue my success with serotonin therapy but give me just the right amount of norepinephrine without all the nasty side effect cymbalta gave me. (and talking with other people on cymbalta – they had the same crazy effects I did! Its a tough medication to be on)

What are you taking? I think if you aren’t happy with what you’re on and it’s been long even to see the true effects of that medication without side effects go off of it for a few weeks and than try lexapro or celexa (or any other SSRI) for a month or 2 to see if you have some of the same results as I do. I really think that the SSRIs are working the best for me by keep me calm enough to handle more stress thus not have a panic or overwhelmed attack. So it prevents further pain and fatigue. I think it also help in quieting pain. An SSRI alone probably wont stop pain completely :( but it does help a little. If you do find one you can tolerate, after a few months you may want to add Savella (and by than I will have a better idea of how it works and if it is recommendable.)


Slowly Digging out of This Grave

So today I’m down 15.8lbs!!! YAY! Pools open Saturday – I’m “good enough” for a bikini. It will be very nice to just walk down the street, walk in the lap lane (maybe get in a few slow strokes), and of course get my tan on. I’ve got my 1st pool book already to go: Dead Until Dark. Charlotte Harris’s first book in the HBO True Blood series.  I’m not normally a science fiction reader but with Twilight and True Blood I reconsidered.

So I’ve been a busy bee straighten out my blogs. I’ve never blogged before March 09 and now I have 3, which I hope to earn a little income from with practice!

http://beanskitty.blogspot.com/

http://sexeducationx.wordpress.com/ 

My goal is to post to all 3 at least once a day… but bare with me.

My fibromyalgia has been bad the last few days but a little better today and hopefully a lot better tomorrow.

I have a 2nd date with the guy from Match.com that I went out to dinner with on Sunday night. We had a very nice time – a kiss at the end :) So we’ll see how tomorrow goes!

I just emailed PetConnect, the pet rescue I am getting a dog to foster from. It turned out she needed to be neutered but as long as it went well, she will be here Sat!! As soon as I hear back with a confirmation I’ll post a pic! I’ve never had a dog but think that she will be great therapy. I have to walk her 3x a day and her routine will be more complex than Beans the Cat. I think Beans will freak out the first day or 2 but he enjoyed playing with my ex’s full grown labs so hopefully a small dog about his side will be okay.  I think they’ll become great friends – Beans already loves to play fetch!

Have a great day… I’m off to my weekly doctors appointment.

Rain and rheumatological illnesses don’t mix.

Ever since it starting raining 40 days ago, instead of building an ark, I have been trying to stay as pain-free as possible. Well, it isn’t working score one for fibromyalgia. Pain, fatigue, itchy rashes, hard to swallow food and medicine, trouble moving around, not being able to concentrate, and on & on. I know you all with arthritis, lupus, ms, and such are dying too if you’re in the DC area. April showers bring May flowers, not more rain. 

So I drove across Silver Spring, MD, without crashing into anyone, driving is so dangerous when I’m all fogged out, to see my rheumatologist today. Its time for physical therapy, sweet, this should be fun. I don’t really care about the pain anymore, if I just had pain I think I could deal. Its the whole feel like my mind is turning into mush. Where the therapy for that!? I’m on Adderall for it, even though there is a theory it will make your pain worse, and it is helping a little but not enough to live a normal safe life. 

So before this physical therapy Rx, I had contacted a dog rescue league to foster a small dog because I know that I need to be going to walks everyday to help strengthen my body.  I should be getting a dog this Saturday. The lady who is looking for small dogs for me says she has 3 different dogs and is waiting for their details and pics so I can pick one. This will be exciting and interesting! I’ve never had a dog and I have a big cat, Beans, who still has his claws. Beans has played with Labs before so I think he likes dogs. But thats why I fostered, incase it was a poor situation for either animal. I than can also help to give multiple dogs good adopted homes.

And she wants me to have a plan to return to the workforce the next time we meet in June. I doubt I can do any job in my field full time that will pay the same as the job I had to leave. I worked too hard to have a master’s by age 22 to send my life working part-time at hallmark for minimum wage. Plus, than I would just be living to work. I’d have to spend my evenings and weekends sleeping and relaxing. No, I will never live a life like that. I don’t want to drop dead one day and never enjoy my friends, family, and surroundings. Kiss my ass. I guess this business I’m trying to start needs to take off (check out blogs under the category “It’s All of Your Business.”) 

I know my doctor just has my best interest at heart. She doesn’t want me to become a shut in and honestly I do think I’ve developed a fear of working and failing (again) because of the fibro. I don’t want to try again and have to go through the pain of leaving and feeling that I’m broken and domed to not have a successful career. I’m going to start with volunteering in a life skills program for students who cannot earn a HS diploma because of disabilities, a passion of mine. I had just got my special education certification on top of my k-12 health education certification not to long before having to leave. This way I can still do want I’ve want to do my entire life but get my disability so I don’t have to live with my parents forever and struggle to pay my car payment. 

I’m sure a lot of you out there with chronic illnesses are going through or have gone through this. Feel free to vent on the comments, I feel better after getting this off my chest.

What is Fibromyalgia?

Over the last 2 years I have been experiencing the symptoms of fibromyalgia, culminating in July 2008 with debilitating pain and disorientation. I went onto disability in Dec 2008 because I could not continue my middle school health education job. I still have severe problems almost daily from my fibromyalgia – one of the most complicated cases doctors have seen. 

 

Fibromyalgia Overview via WebMD 

http://www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/default.htm

Learn more about fibromyalgia with its chronic muscle pain, fatigue, sleep disturbances, and tender points.

Symptoms of fibromyalgia include:

Chronic muscle pain, muscle spasms or tightness, and leg cramps
Moderate or severe fatigue and decreased energy
Insomnia or waking up feeling just as tired as when you went to sleep
Stiffness upon waking or after staying in one position for too long
Difficulty remembering, concentrating, and performing simple mental tasks
Abdominal pain, bloating, nausea, and constipation alternating with diarrhea (irritable bowel syndrome)
Tension or migraine headaches
Jaw and facial tenderness
Sensitivity to one or more of the following: odors, noise, bright lights, medications, certain foods, and cold
Feeling anxious or depressed
Numbness or tingling in the face, arms, hands, legs, or feet
Increase in urinary urgency or frequency (irritable bladder)
Reduced tolerance for exercise and muscle pain after exercise
A feeling of swelling (without actual swelling) in the hands and feet
Painful menstrual periods
Dizziness

 

Fibromyalgia symptoms may intensify depending on the time of day — morning, late afternoon, and evening tend to be the worst times, while 11 a.m. to 3 p.m. tends to be the best time. They may also get worse with fatigue, tension, inactivity, changes in the weather, cold or drafty conditions, overexertion, hormonal fluctuations (such as just before your period or during menopause), stress, depression, or other emotional factors.

If the condition is not diagnosed and treated early, symptoms can go on indefinitely, or they may disappear for months and then recur.

Fibromyalgia Treatments

When it comes to fibromyalgia treatments, there are medications, alternative remedies, and lifestyle habits that may help decrease fibromyalgia pain and improve sleep. Yourfibromyalgia specialist may prescribe pain medication or antidepressants to help end the pain, fatiguedepression, and anxiety. In addition, your doctor may recommend regular physical therapy, moist heat and exercise, relaxation, and stress reduction to help you self-manage your symptoms.

There is no one “pill” that treats or cures fibromyalgia. And a multidisciplinary approach that uses both medication and alternative or lifestyle strategies seems to work best to treat fibromyalgia symptoms.